in love with her... all over again...

kalau dah jodoh, takkan lari ke mana...

i miss u...

i miss u... so badly...

for the last time, I love you.

goodbye...

It's Hard

it's hard.
too hard.
living without you.
which is why,
i'm going away.
far far away.
i'm leaving everything behind.
the memories will follow me,
but i hope, i will forget soon.
coz it's hard,
when all i can think about is you.

have a beautiful life.

Hello blog...

Hello my dear blog,

It's been a while now. I'm filled with ten shades of loneliness. Accompanied by ten kinds of misery. I knew it's going to be hard. But I never thought it would be THIS hard. I hope the sun shines soon. Chase away these dark, gloomy clouds. I have no one. I want no one. Let me be alone. I give up. Maybe this is God's way of telling me I don't deserve anyone. That I don't deserve to be loved. It was wonderful while it lasted. I really believed this was it. That she was the one.

I was wrong. I don't deserve her.

Dear blog, do me a favour.

Wake me up when it's time to die.

Lonely...

lonely... alone... lonely... sad... lonely... cry... alone... sad... lonely...

...

Really...?

I am SOOOO into YOU

I am deeply and hopelessly in love with you.

Ur patience and kindness caught my heart,

just as much as your big, sparkly eyes

and red, kissable lips caught my eye.
I've never planned to fall in love with you.

I never thought that the quiet girl in class

could speak so loudly in my mind.

Slowly, but surely, you found a way into my heart.

And I'm never letting you out.

We've had our fair share of ups and downs.

More ups than downs to me;

you've always made me happy.

You always know how to make me smile.

I am happiest when you're by my side.

Here's to us, syg.

I love you.

Forever and Always.

FIESTA!!!

Hello My Love!!!

Dah lama x update blog,

so today's entry will be a bit longer than usual.

Hope u don't mind, syg. Hehe.

This entry is about my school's carnival.

It's called Fiesta.

It's a learning carnival,

where the teachers use fun games to teach lessons.

The children are free to roam around the school

with their parents to try the games.

The Fiesta Balloon.

At the end of the day, I had so much fun

with some of the kids, popping the balloons.

We wish there were more balloons to pop,

but most of them had been brought home

by the children.

Nvm, next year, I will hide more balloons from the children.

Nyeh-heh-heh!!!

Goodies in the canteen.

There's a lot of food and snacks in the canteen.

Got ice-cream, popcorn, waffles, etc.

But the one I wanna try that day

was this Cotton Candy.

Unfortunately, I was too busy that day.

Looking forward to next year's Fiesta.

I'll make sure I attack the Cotton Candy first.

: )

My two Pri 4 beauties with their cute face-paints.

So fun lor the face-paint, syg!

Got one boy, his WHOLE face covered

with Spiderman design.

I lupa ambil the photo pula.

Menyesal!

I sempat ambil these two girls

because they were my assistants

for my game station.

Later I show syg my station. Hehe!

Cheap sale at the canteen.

All proceeds from the sale goes to the murid-murid

yang memerlukan. My sekolah mmg banyak murid-murid susah,

so baguslah ada jualan macam ni.

Boleh bantu they all.

Hahahaha! So kesian this boy.

He keep following me around to sell me his lollipop.

Me: Why do you think I'd want to buy them? Because I'm fat is it?

Boy: Err.. No, sir. I... I... umm...

So kesian him.

I want to buy from him,

but I left my wallet in the staff room.

So I told him to meet me at the staff room

after I'm done with my station.

But by the time, he'd finish selling all his lollipops already.

Too bad! Next year ok boy?

There's these two lovely girls who came to the staffroom,

to sell me their Chocolate Covered Marshmallows.

One piece for 50cents.

So I bought two.

But I didn't eat them. I gave them to the two girls.

Kesian them, surely they're tired from selling the marshmallows.

They were surprised,

but thanked me and happily ate the marshmallows.

: )

The Olympic Rings.

This is in one of the English Classroom.

I don't know how to play this game.

I didn't ask either.

I was on my way to my station at that time.

But it looked interesting lah,

that's why I took the picture.

Haha. This one I don't know what.

Looked like a casino, with the cards

and the teacher also looked like a crouper from Macau.

This is inside the Bahasa Melayu Classroom already.

Here is some children playing Uno Bahasa.

I don't know how to play it lah,

but the kids say just play it same like Uno,

but using bahasa words, etc.

*confused*

: P

This game was done by another Cikgu lah, not me.

The kids looking at me as if I'm going to makan them.

Play lah! What look look?

This is another game. For Pri 1.

The Malay Department decided to concentrate on games

for the Pri 1 pupils this year.

So the games that we do caters for them,

to learn how to spell, create words, etc.

This one is interesting.

The teacher writes some sukukata on the board.

Then, the pupils were given a plastic magnetic dart

that could stick to the whiteboard.

Then the teacher will say "Bentuk perkataan ini: GULA."

Then the kid will take the dart, aim it at the sukukata,

and try to bentuk perkataan GULA lor.

Close up of two kids playing.

Hey! One of them is my assistant!

Now then I realise.

Bukannya nak tolong me, pergi main game pula! Ceh!

Haaaaaaaaa!

This is my game.

It's called "TWISTER ABJAD".

I show syg how to make first, then I show syg how to play.

First, print out letters of the alphabet on coloured papers.

Make sure syg hv several of the often-used letters,

like 'a', 'e', 'm', etc.

Then, syg use scotch tape to cantumkan the pieces together.

Cantumkan at the back lah, so nicer mah, kat depan x nmpk.

Several strips of the letters.

Put on my friend's table first.

My table no space. Hehe.

Thanks Mr.Chia! Sorry hor never ask permission first.

Too bad! Who ask you go home so early?

Nyeh-heh-heh!

Once I'm done with the strips,

I cantumkan the strips together.

then I use a large plastic sheet to cover them.

The plastic sheet make it look nicer,

and also to protect it.

If not, sure koyak one.

Two kids playing.

Very easy to play:

Two or three players can play.

I tell Player One:

"Gunakan tangan kanan anda untuk sentuh huruf 'B'.

Then Player One will cari 'B' and say it out.

Then I do the same to Player Two and say out a different letter.

This is for murid2 lemah lah.

For murid2 yang more lihai,

I will ask them to spell out a short word with their hands and legs.

The kids liked it,

and my station got a lot of children beratur one lor.

Should ask them to pay,

then can make money. Hehe.

If syg rajin, syg do for CC lah.

Good learning game for her.

The end product.

See? The Twister mat become like belacan oredy.

Lucky got the plastic sheet lor.

If not, sure koyak one.

I had a lot of fun that day.

It was a month plus ago.

I saved the pics so that I can show syg in the blog.

Now then baru dapat post.

Hope syg had fun reading the blog and looking at the pics.

Wait we married ody, I bring syg to the Fiesta.

A lot of the teachers bring their spouses/ fiances/ partners.

Hope to bring syg one day.

Ok syg, that's the end of this looooong post.

Syg pun tgh tunggu kat YM tu.

See u at YM syg!

I Love You!!!

MMMMUUUUAAAHHHSSS!!!!

In Love With You

My Love,

i want you to know that i am madly and deeply in love with you.

You came into my life at a moment when i need you to.

you gave me strength, you gave me a reason to look forward to tomorrow.

my heart beats for you, and every beat grows stronger,

just like the love i feel for you deep inside of me.

My Love,

this path we chose,

this life,

is not going to be easy.

sacrifices need to be made, and on my part, i need to be patient with you,

holding your hand, standing by your side.

no matter how hard it may be,

nothing could be more difficult than living without you.

My Love,

these tears i shed for you,

in the hope that i could cry enough for the both of us,

so that you don't have to.

all i want, is to make you happy.

i'm in love with that beautiful smile of yours,

the way your eyes twinkle and grow larger,

the way your hands hold mine tight,

as we walk together hand in hand.

My Love,

you are the best girlfriend i ever had.

your patience amazes me,

your sacrifices are great.

i appreciate you.

you may not be my first girlfriend,

but i pray that you be my last.

My Love,

My Baby Panda,

My Owner,

i

am

madly

and

deeply

in

love

with

YOU.

Forever and Always.

Missing You

I miss u. Sorry for making u unhappy... I will always love u, no matter what happens in the future. :'''''(

Gangsters' Paradise

Hello My Love!!!

I would like to take this opportunity to thank you

once again for taking my convocation gown for me

and also settling the English transcript.

I owe you one!

Can't wait to spend some quality time with you syg.

Like, FINALLY!!!

So long never see u my love,

and I miss you so so so muchhhhh...

NEXT WEEK!!!

NEXT WEEK!!!

NEXT WEEK!!!

:)

Ok, back to the entry.

This entry is called Gangsters' Paradise.

Remember that time I told in front of my house,

this couple was running away from a group of guys,

shouting and cursing all the way?

Yeah, it's not the same people lah, I think,

but this another group of teenagers was making A LOTTTT

of noise in front of my house that night.

They were screaming and cursing and what lah.

Thought they can start fighting anytime one.

Nak sleep pun tak boleh..

Den skali, they so quiet.

I thought they left ody, skali I look out the window,

then I see they still here.

Patutlah senyap,

the police car come ody.

Haha padan muka.

Sure got somebody beh tahan the noise

and call the police one.

So I took a quick snap lah, show you.

See?

Then the next few nights after that, ok ody.

Can finally sleep.

Hmmm...speaking of sleep, so sleepy sey now.

But it's oni 6.46pm..

Baru alek rumah ni...

Wana continue with some work,

then night time can sleep lah..

Hopefully can see syg online tonite...

Can chat a bit...rindu lah syg...

hehe...

Love Love Love!!!

Mmmmuuuaaahhhssss!!!!!!

2nd Birthday Cake!!!

Hello My Love!!!

Syg, before you read this blog entry,

syg must read the one below this tau.

Because I'm writing a series of entries

about what happened the past few weeks.

This entry is about cake.

Specifically, birthday cake.

Remember my entry dat time, about the ice-cream cake

my mom buy for me?

Yeah, dis one is not ice-cream cake lah,

but still nice oso...

My colleagues at work buy for me...

Dat day I was doing my work in the staff room,

den skali dis Cikgu Majidah come to my table and tell me

must go to the staff lounge for meeting.

So I go lor...skali ada surprise pula...hehe

They are very nice people. I feel very welcomed in this school.

Even though it's very far from my house,

I feel happy and at home here.

Oh yah, this is the birthday cake. hehe...

and this one below is my slice...

the rest share2 lah with the other teachers...

but still tak abes.. still got a lot...

so give to the pupils inside the staff room yang kena punish..

hahaha...so berbaloi they all, kena punish that day,

tapi dapat cake...haha

takpe, skali je..

Syg, mana syg pergi ni?

Kata nak YM Date?

I masuk YM, syg ada, tapi syg x reply pun..

syg go to the CC meeting is it?

hmmm... xpe lah...

besok pun boleh...

I nak sleep ni...

dah bedtime.

So for tonite, just these two entries je k..

Tomorrow I will try and blog some more, insyAllah..

Good nite my love...

Sweet dreams...

I Love You

*hugggsss & kisssessss*

p/s: NEXT WEEK! NEXT WEEK! NEXT WEEK! :)

Catch-Up Blogging

Hello My Love!!!

Once again, so looooong didn't blog...

I'm sure u understand why, but still, sorry ok..

Well, here i am, trying to blog a bit before bedtime...

hmm.. A few things happened lah this past few weeks..

I will tell syg all abt it in a series of blog entries ok..

I took some pics of what happened, wait syg see la ok...

Coming Soon!!!

hehe...

Ok, here goes...

No.1 on the list...

Happy Birthday Sweet 16!!!

Hello My Love!!!

Hi syg, dah lama uh I x update..

hehe..

sorry syg, very busy with work la..

a lot of things to take care of..

maklumlah baru start kerja..

need to give a good impression mah...

the first few months will set the tone

for the rest of the year n the next year

n the years after that...

must kerja keras..so can earn

a lot of money for us..

then can save money,

den can kahwin,

den can go on nice holidays with syg..

tak janji tau syg, must see keadaan juga ok..

but of course, i'll try my best

to provide the best for u

n our children syg...

wah...dah fikir jauh nampak... hehe

takpe syg, we'll take it slow ok..

syg finish ur studies first..

must do ur best..

den, i'll come for u my dear.. i promise..

i love u so much syg...

omg, i really really do...

haiz...miss u...

syg, few days ago, as u noe,

i had my 16th birthday..

yes, 16th..

i am 16 this year...

hehe...

don't care!

16!!!!

hehe..

anyway, it was a normal birthday for me..

no party, no celebrations..

yah lah, when u get to my age, these things

will only remind u how old u are... :P

i spent the day at home,

just cleaning the house as usual,

n cooking... hmmm.. i don't remember what i cooked dat day

but it's nothing special lah..

just masakan biasa aje..

den when i'm done with the housework,

i watch tv..

DEN....

my mom came home..

hehe..

she bought me a Swensen's Neapolitan IceCream cake...

neapolitan is the vanilla, choc n strawberry cake..

very nice...

This is the box..

d box je dah look so yummy..haha

Taa-daa!!!

den here is the cake!

yumyumyum!

so pretty...mcm sayang pula nak potong...

my mom ask me to cut, so what to do,

must listen to mummy mah,..

so i cut lor...hehe

This is the slice that i ate..

cannot eat too much...

very high calorie..

den the rest i give my mom n sis eat lor...

but lambat nak habis...

becoz a lot lor..

yesterday baru habis the cake..

good la.. coz the box is very big,

n take up a lot of space in the freezer...

Hmmm...Ghana just score a goal...

i'm watching the USA vs Ghana match..

im alone now...

just now my friends Talib n Irwin came

n watch the Uruguay vs S.Korea match...

very exciting match lor.. so kesian Korea out ody..

they played really well just nw...

just no luck kot...

mmm takpe lah..

My friend Helmi is in Korea rite now... kerja..

den just now we call him..he say he's watching the game oso..

den we tell him don't wear the Uruguay jersey..

wait kena hoot!

haha..

den after the match, the three of us went drink kopi

at Changi, around 10mins from my house..

den they send me back..

they cannot watch the USA Ghana match becoz tomoro they work..

so syiok me tomoro no work..

aiyoh.. but still a lot of work to do..

monday dah start full teaching ody...

mmm but good lah...

cepat2 den august ody..

den....

den...

den...

hehe....

i love u syg...

never forget that ok...

i love u

i love u

i love u

forever n always...

syg be good ok...

i'm so good here...

very well behave u noe..

very guai.. hehe..

i love u syg...

my love for u will never die..

till the day we meet again, good night, sleep tight,

sweet dreams...

wah so long this entry...

betol punya bayar hutang nampak?

haha..

ok ok i stop now...

love u baby!!!

mmmmmuuuaaahhhssssss!!!!!!!

*BIGGGG HUGGGSSSSSSSSS*

Long Distance Movie Date

Hello My Love!!!

I had a nice time with you syg.

Enjoyed our long-distance movie date.

Lol, LTOC we both... haha

xpe la syg, ini pun jadi la ha..

wait we'll have our real movie date..

i miss u a lot my love..

cepat2 finish ur studies ok syg..

can't wait to come for u,

n start a new life together...

we'll live happily ever after syg,

forever n always..

i promise u..

Syg, too bad we can't watch the P.S. I Love You movie..

star movies nvr show lor.. it's showing Defiance..

syg see the pic.. i take from d tv..

see?

xpe syg, next time ok..

syg slp ody?

i nk tdo ni syg...

see u again ok

i love u baby...

miss u so much...

nitenite!

sweet dreams!

Hugs n Kisses!!!

Delete!!!

Hello My Love!!!

Hi syg, notice anything different about my blog?

Hehe..

I kena delete the previous posts lah syg.

Becoz just now my "boss" reminded all the "workers"

that we cannot post anything to do with our "work",

"clients" or "workplace" on our blogs.

We can only post about our lives, whatever la we want,

but CANNOT post about anything

to do with "work".

Hehe... I hope syg understand why i use the ("...")..

It's becoz i dowana leave any clues to the other

readers what my "work" is..

wait i get into trouble..

So I had to delete all the old posts about it lor..

Hmm..so long never post blog entry...

been very very busy with work...

haiyoh!

:P

Alah, lagipun, syg pun x selalu lepak my blog..

i tgk, almost 5-6 days baru syg muncul..

hehe... ni i buat post ni, i dowan tell syg...

tengok when syg perasan the post...

hehehehehe...

ok syg, i wana take a nap...just reached home from work...

so tired here...

wait i wake up, i'll give u a msg k syg..

i love u baby...

forever and always!!!

*hugsss and kissiesss*

:(

i need u.. now more than ever.. :(

sick

so sick. medicine make me feel sicker. waste of weekend. 45 days in china. great. i wan to sleep.

Uncle Ben & Uncle Jerry

Hello My Love!!!

hehehe...like d pics?

I was on the way home tadi,

den I singgah petrol station,

to top-up petrol.

Den when I want to pay, I go inside..

Den I feel like got someone calling me..

So I turn around,

rupa-rupanya Uncle Ben & Uncle Jerry yang panggil.

hehehe..

But I never buy la..diet mah...

So I just take d pics, to show syg..

Hehehe...

Next time syg come Singapore, I treat syg to Ben & Jerry's ok.

It's very nice..syg mesti suka..

Ok, back to YM date!

Love you, baby!!!

P.S. I Love You

Hello My Love!!!

Was thinking of you, and waiting for you to come online.

So I decided to spend the time

by making syg ur very own Love Certificate,

specially for syg, from my heart to yours. =)

Use it anytime you want syg, it's unlimited in supply.

hehe..

I love u syg...

Faces Of Love & The Mamak Nite

Hello my love!

Just entering a new post before I go to sleep. Hehe.

It's been a few days only, yet I missed syg so much already.

I don't know how I'm going to go through a few months without your kind, tender love, syg.

Thank you for emailing me your pics, syg.

It really helps a lot.

Everytime I get a new one, it puts a smile on my face.

Really really really can't wait to see you again.

Here's some pics of syg which was inside my fone.

Don't think ever bluetooth to syg yet, kan?

Hehe xpe, this one is my special collection.

Everyday I would just gaze at your pics, close my eyes,

and wish you'll appear in front of me.

When I open my eyes, syg not there.

But it's ok syg.

Syg not in front of my eyes, but close in my heart.

I will bring syg everywhere I go.

Pada setiap kelipan mata,

pada setiap hembusan nafas,

kusebut namamu..

I miss you so...

Below is some pics of us, also my special collection. Hehe..

Those sweet moments shall always stay with me, syg.

I shall cherish them..

And when we meet again, we'll make new memories.

Can't wait!!!

You're so beautiful, my love..

Outside, and inside.

I've never met anyone like you.

I'm so lucky to have found you, syg..

I love you..

OMG, I'M IN LOVE!!!!!

over lorrrhh!!

hehehe..

Ok, as promised, here's some pics of me, Talib and Helmi..

Just lepak at mamak, chitchat and enjoying some kopi.

Helmi, the Chow Kit Road gangster.

Talib, the terrorist.

And ME!!! Polar Bear Paling Seksi!!!

Hehe...

Omg, syg, dah 1.25am... I took one hour to do this post.. Haha..

Ok lah, I nak sleep ni. Tomorrow nak wake up early..

See you in dreamland, syg!

Love you so much!

Huggssss & Kissiessss!!!!

P/S: Syg have a safe trip back to Sarawak ok?

Say Hi to Saga, Sureen, BB and CC for me...

Syg be good ok.. I love you, syg.. Mmmuuuahhss...

Eh yah, don't forget buy KINDER BUENO for Sureen.

Wait she kill me. :P

See you again!!!!

Sleepless In Pasir Ris

Hi syg..

Syg must be in dreamland right now..

I cannot sleep..coz never say I love you n gdnite sweetdreams to syg..

So I think just type in an entry.. nak biasakan diri with the blog.. hehe..

I'm starting work on Wednesday,

I'll take pictures of the school and post it in the blog ok syg,

so syg can see where I'm working.

Syg also must take lots of pictures in Sarawak ok,

especially pics of syg in mummy's shop. Hehe..

Nak see syg make kopi and omega egg.

Can't wait to taste your kopi and omega egg, syg..

Sure sedap one.. Sure anot? hehehe..

Syg, I think you are right, our souls are connected..

Especially right now, with everything that is going on with my family..

I'll be strong.. If syg can be strong, I can be too...

You're my inspiration, syg.

We'll learn from this, and we will be the best for our own family ok syg.

We'll show them how it's done.

I love you syg.

See you tomorrow ok..

Gd nite.. Sweet dreams..

Huggssss n Kissiessss!!!

My Darling Angel

My love..

U r my darling angel..

From the first day I opened up my heart to you, I have been awed by your beautiful love..

I feel so blessed to have you in my life..

I have never met anyone like you..

You truly are an angel, sent by God, to me..

I will always love you, cherish you, respect you,

and shower you with all the love that I have in my heart..

I'm counting down the moments till we meet again..

Though this distance between us is far, I'm confident we can make it through,

and that we will prove that true love will win in the end..

I will come for you, have you as my wife,

and we will live happily ever after..

Wait for me, syg... I'm coming...

From Me To You

Hello my love!

Welcome to my blog, dedicated specially for you, syg. Hehe.

I will update syg on the goings-on in my life in Singapore,

so syg will always know what I'm up to.. hehe..

dun worry syg, I won't be notty..

I'll be your good boy..

I'm sorry if my blog is not up to standard,

this is my first time trying out blogging on my own..

i'll try and learn and pick up new skills along the way ok syg?

Syg, I love you.. Forever and Always..